By His Love.

I may have stumbled and fall. I may have made mistakes and things were out of my control. I ran away and isolated myself. I allowed myself to experience dryness and took advantage of my weakness. I avoided talking about my problems and I tried redirecting to other things. I denied my own feelings. I was distracted and find it hard to focus. I forgot my purpose. I was drowned in my emotions. I became lazy. I lost sight of God and His plans for me. I felt empty and longing for someone's presence. I was looking for love that I fail to realize what I had. I was broken and was unable to let go.

God will heal me of my brokenness and
He'll fill my emptiness by His LOVE.

It was then that I realized that the more I ran away from God, He would still find a way to comfort and make me feel loved. The more I avoided, the more He's leading me to it. The more I didn't want to voice out, the more He's giving chances for me to talk. The more I allowed myself to be lazy, the more He wants me to be busy. The more I dwell on my loss, the more He would assure me that greater things will come. The more that I want to isolate, the more He would find ways for me to be surrounded. The more that I wanted is the less that He would give. The more that I wanted to be alone, the more that He wanted to make me feel I'm home. The more stressed I was, the more He would make me realize how blessed I were. The wrong things I desired were the situations He purposely redirected for my greater good. Now I want to start again and I will slowly stand up. For I know that…. God will heal me of my brokenness and He'll fill my emptiness by His LOVE..

Through His love, He can make impossible things possible. He can change and renew me. He will forgive and give me a chance to grow and be better. He will allow me to witness His greatness and by His love, I will be made whole again till I'm ready to pray, love and serve Him to the best of my abilities. By His grace and in His time, I claim victory in Jesus' name, AMEN!

May God be praised! J

Say YES to GOD

Holy Gospel of Jesus Christ according to Saint John 12:24-26.

Jesus said to his disciples: “Amen, amen, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains just a grain of wheat; but if it dies, it produces much fruit. Whoever loves his life loses it, and whoever hates his life in this world will preserve it for eternal life. Whoever serves me must follow me, and where I am, there also will my servant be. The Father will honor whoever serves me."

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The gospel today speaks about obeying God, serving His people and following Him to where He wants us to be. Being a servant of God is a difficult task because there will come a time that you have to deny yourself, you have to give up your desires for the greater good, to be tempted at times, to be judged or questioned, to carry the cross of Christ or maybe to suffer like He did, to be sent out for mission in different areas and even going out of your comfort zone just to be able to complete your task.

Obedience is difficult without the willingness of the heart. It's hard to obey if it's against your will or if you're being forced to do something. You have to willingly accept and embrace the mission that God calls you to do and that is to serve and follow Him. It all starts with acceptance, love and a commitment that you can obey and witness the fulfillment of God's promises and miracles.

The harvest is near but the laborers are few. God calls us to serve Him and evangelize the world and making everyone know of His immense love for us and also Jesus' salvation for mankind. Not everyone is aware of it and God doesn't want you to sit down and wait because He wants you to move and do your part. God loves you but He also loves them that is why He wants us to go out and spread the word. We can do something with our efforts and it doesn't matter if it's big or small.

 We are all called for a purpose and it's never a coincidence nor an accident. God brought you in this world for a reason and in order to live your life meaningfully, you should discover the purpose why you're here. God never stops in calling. He doesn't call the qualified yet He qualifies the called. Don't worry and don't be afraid because God will show and reveal to you His wonders, mercy, power and majesty as long as you choose to serve and follow Him. Are you ready and brave enough to answer Him with your Yes? Say Yes because God didn't promise that it will be easy but He assures you that it is worth it.

SAY YES TO GOD! AMEN!

God bless you!

Give all to love; obey your heart. -RWE

May God be praised!

Get Ready, Set, Witness!

The 12^th National Conference in the UAE will take place in a few days/hours at Sharjah! Everybody's excited and ready to experience the immense love and graces of the Lord. Good things and even greater things will happen and everybody just can't wait to experience it. So therefore we must get ready, get set and witness how God's mercy, outpouring of blessings, forgiveness and unfailing love that's constantly felt, experienced and meant to be shared.

GET READY.

We must get ready as the Lord has prepared surprises for us! The sessions and the activities are meant to teach and mold us to become effective witnesses and mouthpieces of the Lord. We must also be excited because it is going to be a day of worship and praise therefore it means a lot of singing songs, jumping for joy and unending thanksgiving to Him. For now as we prepare, let's feel the excitement as we are counting the remaining days to hours before the awaited event. Ready your pens and paper to take note of the wonderful messages He will reveal and also capture Jesus' moments that you can share with your friends around the globe. A lot of things are waiting for us and let's get ready to experience God's greatness, graces and goodness anywhere and everywhere.

GET SET.

Let us also lay down to God all the brokenness we feel, the struggles that we've been through, the unresolved problems and issues, the worries and all other concerns. Let's surrender everything to God and allow Him to take over. Learn to let go and let God's will be done. Let's set our hearts and minds so that we can place our focus on to God alone. Also, as we learn to pause for a while to think and reflect, let's remember to pray and ask God's leading so that our decisions and actions are well guided and are in accordance to His plans. May the Lord set our hearts ablaze because we want to go out and spread His love. Everything is all set, we just have to do our part, patiently wait for the go signal and pray.

WITNESS.

To become a witness is not an easy task but it can be fulfilling. Proclaiming God's word and becoming a witness is challenging especially in a world full of different cultures, religion, practices, race, experiences, beliefs, language and understanding. Testifying and being Christ like is what God wants us to be. Revealing to the world about Jesus Christ is a struggle and it is worth fighting for. God made it known to us that we should share whatever is in us. He emphasized the true meaning of love and it is manifested in giving, in sharing, in blessing and in forgiving. Let us not allow the hindrances that we experience to stop us from proclaiming God's word in evangelizing His people as we share the good news in transforming the world and renewing the face the earth.

So let's get ready, get set and witness!

Prayers up for the NatCon.

If God gave..

If God gave me a higher paying job than what I have now.. then I would not know how to save and spend money wisely. I would have decided to spend and spend on useless material things. I would have things that I just don't need but even what I want. I may have been selfish and keep it all to myself without the intent of sharing to others especially my family.….. but God gave me a job that's not that high but not that low. It is an average paying job that taught me to budget my money and even share it to my family. God made me realize that I should be thankful because some experience the worst cases regarding there job and even abuse. He entrusted me with little and I believe He will entrust and bless me much when I am capable of handling the responsibility. 

If God gave me a part time job.. every week or even twice a month then I would've earned hundreds to a thousand but He didn’t. He didn't give me that because He knows that if I was busy earning money then I would've forgotten about Him. I would not have any time to go to Church and attend the Holy Mass. I would not be able to serve Him completely because I'm too busy. I would also not be able to attend my household, trainings, fellowships, conferences, etc because I would rather choose to earn money than building my faith, strengthening my relationship and spending on fellowships and other things.

If God gave me expensive, latest, cool and hi-tech gadgets.. then I would be busy using those things rather than praying, writing my journals, create designs, etc.. I admit that I love having gadgets because I feel comfortable having them and they meet my needs. I feel "IN" especially if I have the most expensive ones. I even dreamed of having an IPHONE but then I realized that having those things will only give me temporary happiness and contentment. After acquiring these things I will keep on wanting more and more. One more thing is that I can't bring these gadgets with me when I die. It can't save me from anything. It can't replace any person who's important to me. It was made for a purpose and that purpose is to entertain.

If God gave us a chance to be together as a family.. then I or we wouldn't realize how important having a complete family  and how it influences each one of us. God made our family to be like this so that we can appreciate each others worth and presence. Being separated from each other, dealing with their differences, misunderstanding, selfishness, cat and dog fights, etc led to a gap that continuously grew as the years passed and became a major, major issue. It may be hard to express the suppressed and corny feelings but the power of love conquers all. Time and love changed and motivated us to value God's greatest and gorgeous gift which is the Family. When all else fail, it is the family whom we can always run to and with God.. I am blessed to have a complete family and I will never stop believing that one day we will be complete and we will never be separated again, with the grace of God and His blessing, AMEN! Reunited 2013!!!

If God gave me perfection.. then I wouldn't have realized my flaws and shortcomings. Only God, blessings and love are perfect. I always believe that I have to do things perfectly. I had the attitude of being a perfectionist. I was afraid to make mistakes. I was afraid being told and being embarrassed. I am concerned on what people will say to me. I am mindful of my actions and I follow the standards of the world. But then I realized that it was only I who is hurt. It was I who struggled with perfection. It was I who had to prove my worth, be accepted and be pleasing in the eyes of others. God assured me that it is only Him that I should please and that if I continued doing this then my identity will be lost and I will always be broken. God healed me and transformed me to be better. He allowed these things to happen to open my eyes to the reality that I was blinded to. He made me realize that I am not perfect, that it's ok to make mistakes, that I shouldn’t be affected on what people may say, that I should go out of my boundaries, that I should live life to the fullest and that I shouldn't be afraid. God used my imperfections to see, experience and reveal to me how beautiful life is with Him.

If God gave me a perfect love story… then I would have not experienced being heart broken. Then I wouldn't feel any pain and disappointment. We wouldn't have been hurt if it did. And if He did then we wouldn’t learn from it and we wouldn't correct our mistakes. He made me realize that people have to break up in order for them to grow up. When God closes a door, He would open a window. Sometimes people have to experience being broken for them to realize that God has better plans for them and maybe God is preparing them for someone better as long as we trust His will and timing. God allowed me to understand the true meaning of love and trust despite the brokenness in me. He is slowly healing me and mending the scars I have. For now I have to wait and do the things God wants me to do. I have to love God and my family more so that when it is time and when I'm ready then I can be able to accept and love someone again yet this time being wiser, better and more mature.

If God didn't give me pain, hurt, disappointment, rejections, struggle and difficulties… then my life would have been easy. If He didn't then I wouldn't have learn things the easy way. God used those struggles to mold me to become the person that I am now. He tested me by giving me those struggles to shape my character and to change me of my ways. He revealed to me that when things go wrong I should call His name always in prayer and most of the time. He made me hold on to Him because He knew that I need to grow, learn and move forward. He assured me that "Nothing just happens." And "All things have a purpose and that we have to discover that." He made known to me that there are no accidents and all of it is a part of His great plan for me and for everyone. .Things became clear after our eyes have been washed away with tears.

 Sometimes God doesn't give you what you think you want..not because you don't deserve it but because you deserve more. :)

 

If God gave me things that I want rather than what I need then I wouldn't have realize the importance of having less and be contented other than wanting to have more and more. God allowed these things to happen because He knows that it is for the better. Nothing just happens. Everything happens for a reason.  It may not be clear now but soon you will understand. As they say, there are no accidents. Indeed, God moves in mysterious way. His plans are way better than ours. He is in control and we need to be still and trust His will. God is so good and great! Thanks be to God. In Jesus' name, AMEN! :))

May God be praised!!

Brain VS Heart

I stumbled upon this picture as I was thinking of something to share...

The never ending fight between the mind and the heart...

The mind may contradict and reason but the heart insists and wins..

The battle of the heart and mind always happens and never ends. :) I guess the heart has feelings that contradict with the understanding of our mind. 

The mind was created to understand and perceive while the heart is to feel and to love. :) And I guess each part of our body just do what it's intended to do or to function as it was made. God is so great to have created a perfect body with organs, a brain and a heart.

I guess we just need to seek God's guidance in all our thoughts and actions so that we are guided and we don't experience confusion to which is right and not. 

Get ready Child

Don't be afraid. Get ready. Surrender. Be excited. Pray. Hope.

I feel anxious today because I remembered something that I have been yearning to do ever since and now I feel like I am not ready or that I am doubting if I can really do it. Imagining and planning things make me tired and over thinking brings me stress. For now, I know God wants me to be ready for all the possibilities that will happen and He wants me to keep trusting for He has great things that soon will be revealed in His right time.

If you fail to plan then you're planning to fail.. hahaha just remembered that line.. :) I just thought about it and somehow exaggerating is not a good thing to do now..

All I know is that I will be still knowing that God is God and we are not and He holds our future. :) I will trust Him and I will be ready for whatever it is that will soon happen. I hope my heart is flexible and open enough to accept all that I will be going through sooooooooooon..

BENDING without BREAKING

It has been 2 weeks(?) since I last posted or blogged about something.. To admit, I had struggles and I didn't have time to blog about it. For 2 weeks, I experienced the ups and downs, the tears and joy, the questions and doubts and the importance of prayer, letting go and allowing God to take over. Things have been tough on me and I always have a heart break everyday except weekends. I felt being stabbed on the chest and it's hard for me to cope up. I tried suppressing my emotions instead of repressing it. I felt the burden getting heavier and I find it hard to understand why it was happening. I felt depressed and I always held on to eating to feel the sense of comfort. I knew that something was wrong about me and it made me wonder why or how. I asked for the grace to accept the reality, to keep loving, to forgive, to continue being kind and do good to others even if they're not. I instilled to myself that I should be humble, forgiving and loving as Jesus Christ was.

Honestly, I asked a lot of question to God. I tried to ask the spirit to give me knowledge and wisdom to understand because I can't rationalize it. As the days pass by, things are getting harder and the feelings in me are almost at my peek. I felt being consumed by my emotions and I had to control myself before I do things recklessly. In my mind, I knew God was slowly bending me for Him to mold me and sharpen my character. God knew I had to strengthen my faith and he tested me to see how much I could move forward. Through that experience God showed me the power of prayer and how it changes your perspective. It didn't happen instantly yet I know God works mysteriously. Things became clear because my eyes were washed away with tears.

There's a line that pierced through me during the resurrection of Christ:

"He humbled himself therefore God raised him high"

During the third week, I noticed a change in me. The things that seemed to bother before are not that important now. I mean instead of making it as a big deal, I learned to ignore it. Instead of getting even, I decided to be humble. Instead of competing, I chose loving. Instead of complaining, I kept obeying. Instead of doing bad, I chose to do good. Instead of hurting, I chose forgiveness and healing. Instead of hating, I prefer loving. Instead of breaking, God taught me the importance of bending. I allowed God to have His way in me for I know greater things are yet to come and nothing just happens.

Praise God! Now all those experiences are nothing because God blessed me an enduring, kind, faithful, joyful, strengthened, trusting, prayerful and loving heart. I know God wants my heart to be in tune with His. I really praise and thank the Lord for all the realizations and the transformation He has done to me. No matter how hard things in life may seem just keep bending but not breaking. And now I can truly say that I am pressed but not crushed, persecuted not abandoned, hurt yet healed and being bent without breaking.

"God wants me to be flexible like a bamboo, to keep bending without breaking!"

"Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us." Romans 5:3-5

Thank you and Praise God!

God bless! :)

 

Epic fail bangs!

It has been 2 weeks since the Epic fail bangs!! BOOOOOOM! I immediately cut it without thinking thus made it look so epic fail! grrrrrrrr..

But then again... I learned it the right way.. And now I discovered a technique to cut it yahooooooooooooo! hehehe so here's the epic fail bangs.. I thought it was ok but I needed to fix it so that it will look like it's professionally cut by an unprofessional person hahahah..

But then mistakes make you realize and you learn to do it right, the next time.. :)) So just wanted to enjoy my epic fail bangs and this is the second worst thing that I did with my hair heheh hoping it will never happen the third time hehehe :)) At least I learned! YEAAAAAAAAAAH!

Dream boy (Part 3)

I woke up at 6:30 in the morning today. I couldn't believe what I saw in my dream. I thought that it's a sequel to Me and my weird dreams.. It could even be more weird than the previous ones but this time.. I recognized the face of the guy and luckily I knew Him. Or maybe I'm assuming? hahah But his face was so clear to me... Wahooooo! hahahah LOL! I want to describe his physical features but I'm afraid that He'll be noticed and He might have a feeling that it's Him I'm referring to. It's better to be quiet and limit the descriptions about him hihihih Here's a lil info.... He's attractive, humble, nice, responsible and the best thing about Him is that He is an active SFC member! Very nice! CHECK! :D

I'll call him Dream boy since He visited me and my dreams for several times now like 5 already? We don't communicate or even see each other but only during activities. I never think of him or anybody.. Really? Maybe others would say that "maybe I'm thinking of him subconsciously?" Is it a coincidence or just pure fantasy? Well even I couldn't explain it either hehehe..I'm just a girl who dreamsssss a lot :))

True love coming soooon! :))

So back to the dream and it goes this way.. So Dream boy invited me and my friend for lunch. I went in a room then went out carrying a bird cage.. I walked in the hallway with my girl friend (maybe it was Ayra, my best friend since HS - just a guess) and I saw dream boy smiling at me as I was heading towards him.. He was cute actually or is it that I imagined him but no offense because He's definitely cute and attractive hehehe and so I looked away from him and pretended not to notice him. I was a bit shy and walked passed him and his friend.. In my mind I thought that him inviting us or me for lunch was a joke so I just ignored it. Then all of a sudden He called my attention and said "Let's go for lunch." Him saying that made me smile and kilig for a while and I said Yes but then I woke up.................... wooooooooooooooooooooooooh....... bitin! grrrrrrrr....

It's frustrating to wake up in a middle of a dream and you don't know what happened next.. Oh well.. It made me smile though... And here I am waiting for another episode hahahah What do you think would have happened next? hmmmmmmmmmmm... Was it a date? waaaaaaah! heheh oh well.............

Dreams are very strange.. And I noticed I've been dreaming a lot and somehow it's all connected with having a relationship with a guy.. Is it time to have one or am I just having fun? Hmmm is this a sign? Or it's just in my mind?????? OOooooh lot of questions but I know God will reveal and answer them all sooon in His time. So let's waaaaaaaaaaaaaait and not exaggerate!!! heheheh

Weird dreams Part 2

Then again.. I dreamed of somebody for the second time around and this time I think we were a couple already hahahah.. Or maybe was I assuming? I felt happy and we called ourselves "My Boy or Guy and My Girl" because we were in an intimate relationship. We go out for a date, walked near or by the bridge and I remembered cooking a white meal for Him like maybe oatmeal/porridge, lugaw, soup, or caldo! All I know is that it was something hot and I happily cooked it then we ate together hehe..

Hmmmm who is this person that I've been dreaming of? I never think of somebody or anyone. Hmmmm I don't know.. ehehehe I think unconsciously???? Well but yeah I miss the feeling of somebody caring for you. Someone who would make you happy and do crazy things for you. He would call and text you for no reason but say I love you! He would give you flowers, chocolates or anything He thinks you love. You would go to Mass together then go out after. He would offer to take you home and you would talk over the home til midnight. You would even see each other everyday or even play cards together. You would do things you both love and even do skype hahahah.. Then He would meet your family and then you would also meet his family. Then you would celebrate monthsaries, anniversaries, birthdays and all other special occasions.. :)

Owwwww it's been almost 17 months since I was into a relationship and I guess it's about time I prepare my heart to accept. Actually it's been prepared and ready hehehe.. :)) God allowed me to learn, to mature, to realize, to wait, to heal and to be better. Woooh time to brush off the fears away and let love take over..hehehe

I had a 2 minute conversation with an Indian friend working in a grocery store which I usually buy from at the elevator.. He asked me, "You've changed and it's beautiful." I was flattered, blushing and happy then answered, "Yes I did. I changed the color of my hair and everything!" He then asked, "Are you married?" I said, "No." He asked again, "Single? You have boyfriend?" I proudly said, "No, not yet! Soon!" Then he wondered, "Why?" I answered, "Well I'm waiting and sooon!" Then our conversation ended because we parted ways heheh

I then asked myself after that, "Am I ready to enter in a relationship?" Or maybe I just need someone who'll listen to me and even comfort me in times of distress. I am not sure if I do need a boyfriend now or am I just lazy to explore hahahah.. *kidding! But then I guess it's in a ratio of 65 sure and 35 unsure (65/35)..

Then again, God assures me to wait. :) That while I wait, I should pray, I should serve and I should focus myself unto Him more. He wants me to go and explore. I know He never fails and that He has planned all of this. Sooon in the right time, He will be mine. :) With God's grace, AMEN!

 

I have YOU in my heart.

-Philippians 1:7