Me after 3 years

A walk to remember:

After the workshop talk, we were given a paper to write our dream after 3 years and our prayer to God..

Dear God,
Thank you for the life, for the family, for the CFC community, for work and for everything. Father you know the status of my heart. I am afraid to love. I choose to love those who only treats me good. Lord may I choose to love you more and to love like Jesus did and to suffer like Him Lord. I surrender myself to you Lord. Have your way. Let it be done. Lord ikaw na po bahala!

In Jesus' name, AMEN!

(prayer and desire during the MEC 2013)
BELOVED
October 26, 2013
Al Ain, United Arab Emirates

DREAMS, DESIRES and BLESSINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FAMILY >>> Complete family!!!!!!!!! To be reunited after 10 years! Celebrate events together like the old days. Bonding! To be home in Pinas. Meet up with friends, barkadas, school mates and YFC families..

CAREER >>> Better job, pay, benefits, insurance, flexible leave and air fare! Find a new career in the office. To be better and to always improve!!

SERVICE >>> Higher calling of service, discernment (MV/FTPW), constant prayer time and be Mission Ready!

4G >>> LOVE TO LOVE<3 God's greatest and gorgeous gift! :) I believe in TRUE LOVE WAITS. I am so excited to meet Him in God's time. I'd be happy to be in a relationship with Him.. then if it's time, then marriage and hopefully have our own Christian Family wherein we can serve God together as CFC! Wow ever! <3

HOUSEHOLD >>> to be able to evangelize souls for God and lead them closer to Him. Thank you for blessing me with 4 angels! <3

ME >>> a Better ME (improved, good, loving, understanding, sweet, happy, waiting...) A love to love! <3 Become a SERVANT OF GOD! To be in complete surrender to His will. 3Ts (Time, talent and treasure) for God's greater glory!

Lord God please bless the desires of my heart. May they be in accordance to your will and plan for my life! Lord I entrust my future in You for you know what's best for me. :))))))) 

Ikaw na po bahala!

In your name, I trust! AMEN! <3

Merry Christmas 2013

Merry Christmas! May the birth of Jesus Christ bring us faith, peace, love and hope. :))) I miss you! I love you! I hope we could spend our Christmas together and be complete as one family next year!!!!! :))) It has been the 9th year now and the last time we were complete was December 2004. Hopefully after 10 years and next year which is 2014 would be our year!!!! Praying and hoping for the best.. Take care and may God bless us all.. Enjoy! Cheeeers! 

Dream boy (Part 3)

I woke up at 6:30 in the morning today. I couldn't believe what I saw in my dream. I thought that it's a sequel to Me and my weird dreams.. It could even be more weird than the previous ones but this time.. I recognized the face of the guy and luckily I knew Him. Or maybe I'm assuming? hahah But his face was so clear to me... Wahooooo! hahahah LOL! I want to describe his physical features but I'm afraid that He'll be noticed and He might have a feeling that it's Him I'm referring to. It's better to be quiet and limit the descriptions about him hihihih Here's a lil info.... He's attractive, humble, nice, responsible and the best thing about Him is that He is an active SFC member! Very nice! CHECK! :D

I'll call him Dream boy since He visited me and my dreams for several times now like 5 already? We don't communicate or even see each other but only during activities. I never think of him or anybody.. Really? Maybe others would say that "maybe I'm thinking of him subconsciously?" Is it a coincidence or just pure fantasy? Well even I couldn't explain it either hehehe..I'm just a girl who dreamsssss a lot :))

True love coming soooon! :))

So back to the dream and it goes this way.. So Dream boy invited me and my friend for lunch. I went in a room then went out carrying a bird cage.. I walked in the hallway with my girl friend (maybe it was Ayra, my best friend since HS - just a guess) and I saw dream boy smiling at me as I was heading towards him.. He was cute actually or is it that I imagined him but no offense because He's definitely cute and attractive hehehe and so I looked away from him and pretended not to notice him. I was a bit shy and walked passed him and his friend.. In my mind I thought that him inviting us or me for lunch was a joke so I just ignored it. Then all of a sudden He called my attention and said "Let's go for lunch." Him saying that made me smile and kilig for a while and I said Yes but then I woke up.................... wooooooooooooooooooooooooh....... bitin! grrrrrrrr....

It's frustrating to wake up in a middle of a dream and you don't know what happened next.. Oh well.. It made me smile though... And here I am waiting for another episode hahahah What do you think would have happened next? hmmmmmmmmmmm... Was it a date? waaaaaaah! heheh oh well.............

Dreams are very strange.. And I noticed I've been dreaming a lot and somehow it's all connected with having a relationship with a guy.. Is it time to have one or am I just having fun? Hmmm is this a sign? Or it's just in my mind?????? OOooooh lot of questions but I know God will reveal and answer them all sooon in His time. So let's waaaaaaaaaaaaaait and not exaggerate!!! heheheh

Weird dreams Part 2

Then again.. I dreamed of somebody for the second time around and this time I think we were a couple already hahahah.. Or maybe was I assuming? I felt happy and we called ourselves "My Boy or Guy and My Girl" because we were in an intimate relationship. We go out for a date, walked near or by the bridge and I remembered cooking a white meal for Him like maybe oatmeal/porridge, lugaw, soup, or caldo! All I know is that it was something hot and I happily cooked it then we ate together hehe..

Hmmmm who is this person that I've been dreaming of? I never think of somebody or anyone. Hmmmm I don't know.. ehehehe I think unconsciously???? Well but yeah I miss the feeling of somebody caring for you. Someone who would make you happy and do crazy things for you. He would call and text you for no reason but say I love you! He would give you flowers, chocolates or anything He thinks you love. You would go to Mass together then go out after. He would offer to take you home and you would talk over the home til midnight. You would even see each other everyday or even play cards together. You would do things you both love and even do skype hahahah.. Then He would meet your family and then you would also meet his family. Then you would celebrate monthsaries, anniversaries, birthdays and all other special occasions.. :)

Owwwww it's been almost 17 months since I was into a relationship and I guess it's about time I prepare my heart to accept. Actually it's been prepared and ready hehehe.. :)) God allowed me to learn, to mature, to realize, to wait, to heal and to be better. Woooh time to brush off the fears away and let love take over..hehehe

I had a 2 minute conversation with an Indian friend working in a grocery store which I usually buy from at the elevator.. He asked me, "You've changed and it's beautiful." I was flattered, blushing and happy then answered, "Yes I did. I changed the color of my hair and everything!" He then asked, "Are you married?" I said, "No." He asked again, "Single? You have boyfriend?" I proudly said, "No, not yet! Soon!" Then he wondered, "Why?" I answered, "Well I'm waiting and sooon!" Then our conversation ended because we parted ways heheh

I then asked myself after that, "Am I ready to enter in a relationship?" Or maybe I just need someone who'll listen to me and even comfort me in times of distress. I am not sure if I do need a boyfriend now or am I just lazy to explore hahahah.. *kidding! But then I guess it's in a ratio of 65 sure and 35 unsure (65/35)..

Then again, God assures me to wait. :) That while I wait, I should pray, I should serve and I should focus myself unto Him more. He wants me to go and explore. I know He never fails and that He has planned all of this. Sooon in the right time, He will be mine. :) With God's grace, AMEN!

 

I have YOU in my heart.

-Philippians 1:7

Me & my weird dreams

I dreamed this today! May 1, 2013

I don't know why but I suddenly dreamed about this. I was not thinking about him or about anyone. I can't remember the face but I know it was a guy and I don't know if I was waiting for him, or maybe I just met him by accident, or he's a friend or maybe we met again.. I don't know heheheh It's weird but I felt it's something like a vision or just one of my fantasies hihihi :) I remember the clothes I wore and my hair was long with bangs hihihihi I can't remember the place and when I drew the picture I just added details. I know I was with somebody. I felt nervous that I think I know what was going to happen.. Then I woke up......

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.. When it comes to the good part.. It always gets cut!!!! hehehe Oh well.. somehow that's it! I wanted to treasure the moment so I sketched it so that I can remember it if ever it does happen hihihi If God allows it then let His will be done.. AMEN! Hopefully to be continued!! hihihih

So let's call it a day.. Good night! :) Happy Labor day!!!!!!!!! So blessed to have a job! :)) All for God. All for Love! :)) Thank you Lord for this hope and vision! Have your way!!!! May God be praised!

DREAM (032313)

I had a wonderful dream last night about love. It was so unexpected and somehow I like the feeling about the dream because it felt like it was so real. And somehow it gave me hope about finding and experiencing true love to the highest and best level. I can't clearly remember it but I can visualize it through my mind and feel it through my heart. I wasn't thinking about it or maybe God is giving me a vision about the love story that he has planned and has written especially for me. Upon waking up I felt a light feeling and unexplained joy. I admit I am longing for somebody but I am not desperate now. Still I will wait because I don't want to rush it yet. I have other priorities now that are very important like family, career, service and if ever it comes when I least expect it then I hope God will give me a steady and ready heart to accept it completely. I seem to enjoy what I have now and I will get ready. I know that there will be moments when I feel empty or lost but God will surely bless me until I become full and find me. I may feel incomplete sometimes but I know the Lord will gladly fill my jar to the brim. I know Lord that you are preparing me for a great love story that's never told yet and especially hand written and picked somebody for me. I am excited. I am happy and I am hopeful. The Lord hears me and I can't contain the excitement that I feel. He has spoken to me that this year he will bless me with his greatest, gorgeous God's gift, my 4G! I will be still because you are God and I trust the will of the Father. Lord I am affirmed and inspired to wait for true love because you have planned it! Praise, honor and glory to God above!

::: Sarah Kailyn :::

                                                                 March 23, 2013