10 things I will give to the Lord this 2013

This realization was during the First fruits activity we had last month. So here’s the continuation.. I already made a first post about it but it wasn’t detailed much..

Lord I know I have to give back what you gave to me. I feel so bad Lord that I couldn’t give you as much as you did. Lord I am not worthy and I am sinful. I am really sorry if I became so selfish and I only thought about myself, only myself alone. Lord I only have 10 dirhams with me along with some coins in my pocket and this 10 dirhams is not enough to give back to you for the many blessings and graces that I have received from you during the past years. I’m sorry Lord. I don’t have anything more to give to you but just this. I am really struggling with finances and it’s really hard to cope up. I know Lord that this struggle will soon become a blessing and I firmly believe that I will surpass this with your grace.

Lord You said it doesn’t matter how big or small the amount you give because what matters is you give something. My Lord You said, that what matters most is the character of your heart when you give. It’s easy to give when you have enough but it’s challenging when you give everything that’s left and nothing remains.

 “It’s not about what or how much you have when you give but it’s being delighted in expressing your Love and Honoring me as Your Father My Child. I don’t need those things that you have. I just want you to dedicate yourself to me through these first fruits.” said and affirmed the Lord.

So while I was praying and listening to the songs being played by the Music Min I was also reflecting on how good the Lord has been through the years. The songs that were played were: Give my all, This is my desire and Here I am to worship. He indeed is great and beyond compare. No words can express how awesome His grace and love is for all mankind. I felt so touched and moved by the Holy Spirit and inspired me to write as the Lord lead me.

I then realized that I should have 10 things in mind (desires and prayers) that I would give back and offer to the Lord.

1. Express and live my Faith

2. Prayer time & Bible reflection (consistent)

3. Devotion, commitment and service to the Lord

4. Go on a mission (higher calling, fulfill my dream to become a missionary)

5. Time, talent and treasure to proclaim God’s greatness

6. My Family, My God’s greatest and gorgeous gift.

7. Excel in my career, better finances and praying for better opportunities

8. Relationship with friends, community, etc

9.  Grow, change, mature, blessed and be transformed with God’s grace

10. My HEART. I surrender ALL TO YOU. I LOVE YOU LORD!!

1-5 is about my relationship to God. This year I want more of Him and less of me. I want to go deeper in knowing Him and being in His presence more. I want Him to be the first priority and the best choice that I ever made. I will give Him back what He deserves. I will praise and declare. I will go beyond borders to do your mission. I will make a difference for You. I will bless others as You have blessed me. I will be a living testimony of His greatness. I will OBEY without complain and I will WITNESS His miracles in the lives of His people. I will reach out and I will serve  You with all my heart, mind, soul, body and my everything . I will do it because I love You more and more each day.. For You Lord, I will. I say Yes.

6-10 is all about my family, my dreams, my relationship, my career, personal life, my heart and me, myself. As much as I want to serve and bring back to Him all the glory, I also desire for opportunities to provide for my 4G and also for my future. I also have to think and decide for myself because I have to be independent. I am discerning for a better job with a better pay for next year as my contract ends. I am praying for greater things ahead of me and I know God will really surprise me beyond expectation and I am excited for that. Also I am thinking about having a partner but it’s not really a priority but just an exception hahahah that’s why I made it last in the list. I know the Lord hears my desires and He will gladly give them to me when the right time comes. I don’t know yet but I have it in mind. For now, they are just my desires and I hope for more revelations, realizations and reflections on what I really desire the most. I know and trust that the Lord will truly lead me. Lord I am ready for whatever it is that you have prepared for me.

 I was waiting for my turn to offer my first fruit, my only money and my only heart. I really felt touched by the Lord as I offered it to Him together with the 10 things I have in mind. I kneeled in front of the altar and I really felt His presence. “Lord I am not worthy to give you only 10 dirhams but rest assured that I will give you all of me and especially my heart for you. Lord accept my simple offering, this is what I only have left and may you be delighted with what I gave even if it’s not much. I love you Lord.” After my prayer I felt peace and unexplained joy. God touched me and He blessed my heart. I felt so inspired and so motivated to do greater things for Him. He gave me strength and I know I will be victorious in proclaiming His greatness through the things I am doing and will be doing. Lord I offer this to You.

May God be praised! God blessed to bless!

In Christ,

~SarahKailyn

If you GIVE, you will RECEIVE a hundredfold.

If you give HATE, you will receive hate a thousandfold.

If you give LOVE, you will receive love a millionfold.

If you give and share your BLESSINGS, you will receive blessings a billionfold.

Princess and I: True love endures

True love conquers, perseveres, rests, endures and wins.

"She taught me how to love unconditionally.

And that's the story of the princess and I."

It was true love that brought peace to the fight and argument between the North and South. It was true love that gave light and life to everyone. It was true love that conquered evil and defeat. It was true love that's willing to sacrifice one's own happiness for the sake of others and for the sake of peace. It was true love that endured until the end. It was true love that reigned and won. It was true and unconditional love, a love like God for man.

I watched the finale of Princess and I. it was a good teleserye portraying love for the service of his people in the Kingdom. Actually I'm not an avid viewer of this serye but I was able to check clips that showed a glimpse of it. It's wonderfully produced and I'm sure a lot of people learned from the serye. It's actually nice and heart trembling. It was full of kilig scenes, banat to the max, challenges faced, happiness, action packed and their struggle to bring peace and unity to everyone in the Kingdom.

It takes someone who loved to understand the power of love in our life. Love is the greatest gift and blessing that God gave us. Love is everything. Love is service. Love is passion. Love is our mission. Love is great and bountiful. Love is endless and overflowing. Love conquers and endures. Love perseveres and reigns. Love always wins. Love is Me. Love is You. Love is who we are. Above all, Love is God.

FEB-IBIG NA! This month is all about LOVE.

Make no room for hate. Spread the as God has loved us..

Faithful, patient and fruitful

Jan 31, 2013

Gospel: Mk 4:21-25

Whatever is hidden will be disclosed and whatever is kept secret will be brought to light. Listen then, if you have ears.

"Pay attention to what you hear. In the measure you give, so shall you receive and still more will be given to you. For to the one produces something, more will be given, and from him who does not produce anything, even what he has will be taken away from him."

Feb 1, 2013

1^st reading: Heb 10:32-39

Be patient in doing the will of God and the promise will be yours: A little, a little longer –says Scripture- and He who is coming will come; he will not delay. My righteous one will live if he believes; but if he distrusts, I will no longer look kindly on him. We are not among those who withdraw and perish, but among those who believe and win personal salvation.

Gospel: Mk 4:26-34

Parable of the mustard seed

"What is the kingdom of God like? To what shall we compare it? It is like a mustard seed which, when sown, is the smallest of all the seeds scattered upon the soil. But once sown, it grows up and becomes the largest of the plants in the gardens and even grows branches so big that the birds of the air can take shelter in its shade."

He who promised is faithful.

Today, God has assured me to cast everything to Him. He told me to be patient and to be still. He assured me that everything will be ok and that I need to hold on unto Him.  He said that I should trust Him because He knows what He's doing. As I listened to
You raise me up.. It made me realize that things in life can weigh me down and only God and God alone can lift and raise me up.

Things are harder than I thought and somehow I am starting to be tired and stressed. Sometimes I want to burst out and cry my heart to the fullest. I guess my emotions can really explode when it's too much and overflowing that I couldn't handle nor keep it anymore. It is not always that I am okay because sometimes I'm not really okay. I guess God is teaching me to be strong amidst all things that He will give, and reveal to me. He is preparing me for greater things and that He has to give me a bend to see how I can manage and overcome things like this.

God told me it's ok to cry. It's ok to be weak. It's ok to be down. It's ok if it happens sometimes but not all the time (if possible). For a while my world stopped and I acknowledged my weakness, fears, struggles, failures and insecurities. I became aware of the emotional baggage that I was carrying and the challenges that I am facing. God said I should leave those behind and stop carrying them. Lord I surrender all these unwanted emotions that I kept for so long and I lift this up to you. I know Lord with your grace I am being cleansed, forgiven and healed. Lord I will do my best to be faithful to the promise that I made to you and that I will be fruitful. I know that when I'm down then you will raise me up. Thank you for your unending love and blessings. Lord I surrender. In Jesus' mighty name, I claim victory over defeat, Amen.

A future full of hope.

May God be praised!!!!!

Faithful, Patient & Fruitful like Christ,

Princess Sarah Kailyn

Mission never ends

"A mission never ends in defeat."

It is always my desire to serve God and to go beyond borders. Since it's the first month of the year I want to dedicate and even challenge myself to go to where the Lord leads me. I have friends in Fujairah and I have been wanting to go there since I  want to see and help them with the best of my abilities. I was suppose to go there for Kuya Marvin and Ate's wedding but unfortunately I didn't make it. Since next week (Jan. 25) would be the graduation of there mini CLP I want to visit and perhaps serve there as well.

I have met them before during the YFC National Assembly last November 2011. We then met again during the MEC last November 2012. God is good because He reunited me with them. Actually I get to be with the delegates from FUJ and DIBBA during ACYC at Abu Dhabi last November 17-19, 2012. Amazing huh?

One thing I learned from a missionary kuya was you have to give. I learned that I need to invest and offer whatever it is that I possess so that I may bring glory to the Lord...

Lord do you want me to go to FUJ?

(written last January 19)

I prayed for an answer to that question. I posted that or I mean I wrote that last Saturday (Jan 19). A few days later I was having doubts yet I still prayed and asked God's guidance. I thought I was going even if I was not so sure. I was hoping for a positive and last minute response of Yes because that was what I would always do.

 Hours before the First fruits activity I messaged somebody about my decision because I am not sure but still give a hopeful response that I might go. Unfortunately I decided not to go because of financial constraints and because of a meeting after the activity for our 1^st anniversary. I have 1 more week before the salary release and to tell you frankly I am really struggling with it. It's hard to manage your finances when you don't have much. Even if I have little with me still I can say that I am blessed and I am grateful because I still have. I have to think about my expenses for the week because I need to work and support myself. I had to give up the mission that I really desired. I felt sorry and disappointed but I have no choice but to choose what I think is right for me.

I thought the mission I started was over but I guess God has ways in making us realize that a mission never ends with defeat because it always wins. I may have been defeated because I allowed worries and fear to dominate me but God has a greater purpose in mind why these things need to happen.

After the first fruits activity we had our planning and meeting for the first and awaited anniversary of our batch, the batch 43. We were about like 20-30 something and we talked about what’s going to happen. So it has been decided that we will celebrate the anniversary on April 26 instead of 27 because it's a Saturday and the majority decided to make it a Friday for everybody's availability. So we assigned committee heads so that the tasks will be distributed and would be easier to work on. Surprisingly the Lord gave me another task even greater than I thought it was if I left for FUJ. 

He gave me a committee to serve Him through documentation. He made me a COMHEAD together with Pol as my partner. BOOOM! I am quite excited though nervous since it's gonna be my first time to serve and I'm looking forward to serve Him better than before. I am happy and privileged to be given this opportunity. They choose me and I couldn't say no so I said Yes. I know I can handle this because I am matured enough, mission ready and God believes I can. Yehey! God is good and amazing. 

I am blessed. May God be praised!

Princess Sarah Kailyn :)) 

A responsibility to BLESS

January 30, 2013

I heard from one of my leaders before that: "Our job is to plant seeds of Christ in the hearts of His people. Our task is to spread the seeds of truth, love, faith and forgiveness through evangelization and bringing them back to God.  Then it is  our God who will nourish, fertilize and cultivate it in order to grow."

"May the seed that we planted on you will sprout and grow to become what God intended you to be. May you be evangelized by the word of God through us being His instrument in this mission. I pray that you will also continue to share what we have imparted and to bear fruit."

I am thankful because God allowed me to grow and bear fruit. He planted a seed in me that continually grow to long and seek for His presence with unending love, forgiveness and grace. Level up Lord. Thank you!!! It has been almost 8 years since I started in YFC and now blessed to be an SFC.

I am blessed and therefore it is my responsibility to bless. :)

 

I decided that my battle cry for this year is TO BLESS and INCREASE MY FAITH. I know God has a lot to reveal to me this year and I am looking forward full of hope and assurances that He will bless and surprise me beyond compare and measure. I am blessed and it is my responsibility to bless.

(Inspired by the songs: Oh I Love You!, ONE DESIRE, OCEANS WILL PART) 

Blessed by God, Overflowing with love,
Princess SarahKailyn

Forgive and follow!

Yesterday's gospel was about forgiveness..

Truly, I say to you, every sin will be forgiven… (Mk 3:22-30)

Then today's first reading is… (Heb:10:1-10)

Christ says: You did not desire sacrifice and offering; you were not pleased with burnt offerings. Then I said: "Here I am. It was written of me in the scroll. I will do your will, O God."

Responsorial psalm: Here I am Lord; I come to do your will.

Gospel from Mk. 3:31-35

He replied, "Who are my brothers and sisters?" And looking around at those who sat there he said, "Here are my mother and my brothers. Whoever does the will of God is brother, sister and mother to me."

The song that played inside my mind was "By your grace"

Oh I will live for you. Every moment of the day to you I'll pray.. Oh I will worship you. Every part of me I'll surrender to you and I'll do it all by your grace…

Today, 29 January 2013 was the most tired day I have ever been. I dunno why but I guess it is because my back hurts. I kinda carried a heavy baby today and somehow stressed my back. So for the whole day I could really feel the pain which affected my mood but still tried to perform my duties well.

I said to myself: "I will do your will Lord and I will endure. No matter how hard the work I'm doing or how stressful the parents and kids are or how I relate with my co-workers because I know that it's all worth it. I will Lord for you because I love you so much and I will do whatever it is that you tell me to do.

Sometimes I would just think and decide to be quiet when I hear negative things from them. Silence is my friend when I am insulted and hurt. I guess it's better that way and to avoid arguments. I don't want to argue with them. For me, as long as we respect each other and treat others kindly then that's enough. "My God is the one who'll act and judge you base on your actions." I don't need to curse or think about how bad you are. I am a good person and I will do the right thing even if you don't do the same to me. Even if you laugh at me or even do things to hurt me, still I won’t dare do it to you. I really thank God for blessing me this kindness that I share with others. Even if it's hard to mingle and establish trust with them. I still try hard and understand them because they will always be like that and I can never change it but can only influence them to be better. I guess God really influenced and taught me a lot through CFC J I am so grateful and blessed..

 

Today I learned to forgive and follow. To forgive and to ask forgiveness and to follow God's leading with sincerity and openness. Forgive and follow. Let your heart lead you to your desires and set it free from the hurts of the past.. Let God be your guide and allow Him to be the center of your life and in your heart..

May God be praised!

Be like Christ. Obey and witness!!!

To forgive and to follow like Christ did,

Princess SarahKailyn

Christ driven

The Gospel today was taken from Lk 1:1-4, 4:14-21

Of all the words I read and understood I guess a few sentences struck me the most and made me reflect on the revelations that the Lord is making me discover and realize where He's leading me.

Jesus unrolled the scroll and found the place where it is written: "The Spirit of the Lord is upon me. He has anointed me to bring good news to the poor, proclaim liberty to captives and new sight to the blind, to free the oppressed and announce the Lord's year of year."

Jesus said to them, "Today these prophetic words come true even as you listen."

Ps. 19:8, 9, 10, 15

"Your words, Lord, are Spirit and life."

As I was reading this gospel earlier in the morning before I left for work I paused when I read those words especially to the anointing part. I then asked myself: "Lord are you anointing me? Is this the assurance that I've been praying for? Does it mean I have your blessing and go signal to go and follow my heart's desire? Are these your affirmation and answer to the question I've been asking?"

To tell you frankly I'm a bit shocked yet happy how God immediately heard my cry and answered me with full of hope and assurance. Still I want to make sure of this feeling that this is not the usual thing that I feel. I want to really know if it's really what I want and desire. Lord please continue to guide and lead me to where you want me to be.

My Prayer:

Dear Lord, thank you for your unending grace and providence to me and my family. I am so blessed my God and it is overflowing through me. Thank you so much. Lord I lift and surrender to you my heart, myself, my service and my desires. I pray that may you lead me to the right path. Speak to me Lord. Tell me what you want me to do. Make me realize and know the plans you have prepared for me in this life. Use me Lord to be a blessing to others that I may inspire and give them hope and light like your Son, Jesus did. Allow me to feel your presence and be moved me with your word and Spirit. Touch me and allow change to consume me. Motivate me to strive hard to proclaim your greatness and obey your teachings. Lord God, have your way in me. This heart belongs to You Jesus. I submit and offer myself to You. Use me for your greater glory. I am ready to do your will. Let it be done. Amen.

Driven by Christ. Love for Christ. Journey with Christ.

In Your name Lord, I trust.

Your Princess, Sarah Kailyn

~Inspired by God. Powered by love.~

January 23: Umasa ka Anak

"Umasa ka Anak kahit alam mong walang pag-asa kasi sa pamamagitan nyan maraming milagro ang mangyayari basta’t maniwala’t umasa ka lang sa akin, ang iyong Diyos! Walang imposible dahil lahat posible! Abot kamay mo na lahat ng hinihiling mo basta’t matuto kang mag-antay, magdasal, mangarap at huwag mawalan ng pag-asa. Anak, O aking Prinsesa, mahal kita at pinlano ko ang “da best” para lang sa iyo. Tandaan mo yan!"

-YOUR GG,
Gracious God ♥

 

— from my heart.. God’s affirmation and my only prayer.. :))

My heart, be still.

I don't know what's happening with me this past few days but it has always have to do with my heart. It has been so sensitive, complex and so exaggerated (sometimes). 

My heart is longing for something that is missing. I thought I had everything but there's always a part of me that seeks to be complete. I need not deny it but I guess I know what I need and it is about time for it. I am proud and happy that finally God affirmed me that it is time. I am ready to accept and I am excited to welcome him soon. For now I am still hoping, claiming and waiting. I am still anticipating, longing and dreaming. I am assured and faithful that God will surely grant my heart's desires.

The day before my birthday, God assured and affirmed that this year He will grant my prayer to have my 4G. At first I was afraid and I doubted. I said "Are you joking Lord?" It felt like the first time and I was so nervous and so disturbed (really!). But then who am I to question God? My faith was tested and I failed because I doubted. I know deep within me that it was not I who made it up but it was His voice clearly speaking to me. It was definitely Him. After His affirmations He assured me to fear not and trust Him more because He knows what's best for me. Also, He said I should trust Him more, patiently wait and pray hardest for it.

In His time, He will surely surprise me unexpectedly. I just can't wait when it happens and surely I will praise, glorify, serve and love Him even more. So for now, it's just me and my God. I am enjoying my life being single, blessed and loved. I'm in the process in rebuilding my relationship with Him and with my family. I know that when all things fall in place then His miracle will happen. I definitely claim in Jesus' name. I believe! God's promises will be fulfilled. And nothing can stop it from happening.

"The Lord will fight for you.. You need only to be still…"

Someday it's gonna make sense.. I am sure of it…

A realization and my prayer for my 4G

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So heart, be still. God surely allows it will.

In His right time, soon You will be mine.

This love is selflessly pure and it will endure.

I have faith. I am hopeful. And I will wait.

I will pray. I surrender. And I claim in Jesus' name.

Amen.

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May God be praised!

Sarah Lauren Lim

January 20, 2013

 

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